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Those Scars.I often ask myself if those scars are truly mine and sometimes I wonder why?
Why am I doing this to myself? Why am I punishing myself ?
Then,I just remember what happened before.I remember what went wrong.
I look at myself in the mirror,trying to smile but all I see is fakeness.
I look at the scars covering my tights and I ask myself how.
How could I become that monster? Where's the real me? Where am I?
Am I gone? Have I ever existed before the monster took my place? How would I know.
I see the look on their face as they catch a glimpse of my scars.
They see my weakness. They see me as a weak little girl. But I've got something to say.
Those scars are a proof that I survived a war. I survived a war with myself.
I was battling my head,I was battling what was in there.And sometimes,I wonder.
I wonder how life would be if I haven't done this.And I wonder what would you do?
What would you do if you we're in my shoes? Because you'd feel what I feel.
You'd see what I see. You'd hear what my
Genghis Whenever we were bad my mother used to take us to the mall to see Genghis Kahn. They kept him in a dusty diorama of a Mongolian steppe, all tall grass and yurts. He sat on a throne of bone (well, plastic shaped like bone), scowling in incomprehension at the American kids who flocked around him like startled lemmings. My mother would usually push us toward him, saying things like “Tell him what you did to your father’s stamp collection.” Genghis would give a grunt, spit a wad of phlegm onto the tall grass, and give us a wizened, wrinkled grimace, as if he had to go to the bathroom.
He terrified me.
My brother couldn’t get enough of him.
When my brother got caught in my mother’s evening dress, my mother grabbed us both and dragged us to Genghis. It was a slow day, and we were the only kids crowding him. “Tell him what you did,” my mother hissed a
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